My beloved Natasha,

Hi, baby. I know that at this moment, you're crying and hurting deeply. I promised that I wouldn't make you cry anymore, but I repeatedly failed, so please forgive me.

Forgive me because I was a coward to face you. Forgive me because, in the end, my courage wasn't enough to fight for you and our child. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know how to tell you that I'm tired.

I'm so tired, but I don't want to give up. I don't want to die. I don't want to leave you, but I can't do anything.

When they told me that my memories would...