decided once we were settled. I couldn't swim because of my ankle, but I enjoyed resting in the cool shade while Brian and Noah swam and played around the water. It was touching to see Noah with a man like Brian. clearly my boy yearned for male bonding. There was simply a certain way a father would play and related to my son that I knew I could never duplicated. was Noah really better off without me having a man in my life? I wondered. I had held back from romantic involvement, because of my one night stand with a strange man. that's had been my fear. It was dusk...