When I got back to my room, I ate up the medicine. I don't care if R keeps telling me not to eat. He will worry that I will lose control. But what should I say? I am a man, even though I have no experience of having sex with anyone. But I know how to handle my emotions.

The medicine Julian gave you was incredibly quick. After taking it for less than ten minutes, my dizziness disappeared all week, but it took less than an hour. I have another symptom to replace the vertigo I originally predicted.

I held back my uneasiness. When R fell asleep and heard the...