I haven't been shaken like this in a long time. In recent days, the nerves have been shaken more than in the entire previous life. I definitely get dumber when Alina is around and damn it doesn't bother me.

Scary.

I am simultaneously afraid of what is happening between us, and that everything has an end. logical conclusion. Last test. What should I have said the day we met? Be my woman on trial and after? We've known each other for a couple of hours, most of which I've been an oddball psycho to her. Almost a maniac she met in the woods.

Now I'm angry with myself for those...