It’s been a few days since I saw that horrifying video of Ivan torturing the love of my life. I have been trying to stay healthy for the baby and try not to over-stress my body. It’s hard because every time I remember the video. I end up crying and overthinking about the horrors Stefano might be facing in the hands of Ivan.

I tried calling the number Ivan used to call me that day, but it never went through. He must have used a burner phone and threw it away once he was done talking to me. I watched the video through a phone Ivan mailed to me because...