I felt numb.

The chatter of the nurses and the doctors as they pass by me was distanced. The familiar beeping of hospital equipment, the ringing of telephones and the monotonous voices on intercoms were all drowned out. The scene around me was in slow motion and everything and everyone was a blur. All I could focus on and think about right now was Carson.

The beating...

The blood...

The fast movements of the paramedics as they tried to keep him stable...

His lifeless body...

I closed my eyes tight as my hands, my feet; my entire body started to tremble again. I wrapped my arms around my body as...