I went through a real ordeal that no longer feels like it happened. It's a dream and hazy memories of something so far-fetched that I'd think they were lying if someone told me. I'm lucky to be alive against the odds, and it is a miracle I'm here. I can replay it a hundred times in my head, and I still don't know how I managed to get through it. I can't connect to it as reality anymore.

It feels like I've been given a second chance at life, and I shouldn't waste it. A sign I should change something and undo the mess and unhappiness of my existence. It's...