"I think in terms of OLO, they would be ecstatic, but I let your father down and didn't take care of his little girl. That's something I can never excuse. You always made them proud, and there's not a thing you did that would have changed that. They would have understood your struggles and why you closed down from everyone."

We give ourselves a long minute to stand and acclimatize, to feel and process my crazy internal emotions at being here. My eyes sweep every nook and cranny, and the impending fallout of feelings I was expecting to overwhelm me doesn't quite materialize. It's a dull achy, uptightness that feels...