"I don't want to be a good girl anymore. I want more than wife, mother, PTA, social groups. I've always been the good girl, I don't want to be in control. I'm tired of telling my kids, my husband, anyone else what to do."

"What else," said Gray. "Don't stop."

"I want to be a slut. It's opposite of what I've been. I want to be wanton. But I want someone to make me, to take control."

"You could just cheat on your husband," Gray said.

I thought about it. That's true, but I wouldn't be satisfied. There was another piece. I knew what is was. I was afraid where...