I'm lost, I don't know where I am, it looks like it's going to rain, I have no refuge, I don't know anyone in this city, in this country, all I have is me and only me, abandoned to myself, everyone is right, I'm an idiot, everyone is right, I'm worthless, Dad was right to die an old maid, marriage is not for me, nor is happiness, what am I doing now Moab what have I done to you, God what have I done wrong, mom why did you tell me I would be happy, why did you rush me to my downfall I regret so much I should have...